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Resignation

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There comes a time in your career, when all the work you do mean nothing to you. No matter how highly you are regarded or how lowly are you treated, you just get fed up with the people and things around you.

Same is my case. Though i am not fed up with the people around me, i definitely am fed up with my work and more so with the quotidian routine that the work has created in my life.

2 years ago, everyday when i get up there was an enthusiasm to get to work, to learn new things, to do something. Now when i get up, the first thought that comes to my mind is to bunk office. What is the difference between the two jobs?

One was a startup and the other a MNC. The work ethos and atmosphere in both the places are as alike as Gandhi and Hitler. But even with this, if the work i currently am doing were to be of some interest to me, guess this difference would not have mattered.

I lost interest in the work given to me in less than 5 mins into it. I knew it was not my cup of tea, but i had no choice. This was the only thing i had to do. Lack of resources and abysmal management practices has led to a rather high attrition rate here.

Also, i have a contract of 2 years to deal with. After struggling for 21 months with no idea of what lays ahead of me, i cannot take it anymore. I have reached the limit of my frustration and anger. I have finally decided to quit the current job and go back to the world that was so dear to me. Sometimes when you give up on something, you realize the true value of it.

So now, i need to go back and start from scratch and develop all the skills and techniques that i once learnt as well as some new ones and enter the world of web development with a fresh attitude and a clear mind.

Deadlines are effective way of getting things done, I had never set myself any actual deadline or end date for this torturous journey so now i am going to do just the same. I have decided to quit the company on March 29th or before no matter what position i am in. Even if i have not prepared myself enough or i do not have any other job offer, i do not care. I am quitting.

Sunrise at Elliot’s beach

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Most unnaturally comes a day when i wake up before the sun rises. More often than not i shut my eyes and wander off into a world of my own once the sun has risen. Even today its past 4 am i am wide awake, there’s no power, my laptop battery has run out, and am listening to some old hindi songs and typing this on my mobile in total darkness.

Luckily on monday when i woke up way before the sun, and the rain gods were still taking a break so it was perfect for me to go out and get some sunshine. Unfortunately, today the rain gods are totally pissed.

So, at 5:30 in the morning, i find my self in share auto headed towards elliot’s beach. Its a perfect place to have some self-peace.

I had great time in the beach taking pics and enjoying the warmth of the sun and the cool breeze. Also i took the opportunity to have the magnificent idlis @ Murugan idli shop. And they are the best idlis you can find in chennai. I’ll upload some pics once the power comes back. I hope that the rain gods have taken a break now and i can get to see the magnificent sunrise again.

I have managed to get some pics uploaded thanks to the UPS backup. Dont think it will last long now. The pics are below. Feedback would be great.

A glorious sun rising over the Bay of Bengal

 

Rising high the sun warms my heart

Children's ride basing in the sunlight

Cool bar on the beach

A old broken hand cart

Help me with a caption pls!!

 

A stall by the shore

A macro try

 

A few crows

And last but not the least, the following pic for reasons i cant put in words is my favorite pic of the lot.

Lost in thoughts

All the above pics were taken using a software called Camera Pro in my Nokia N8. The phone truly rocks..

 

 

An obvious choice

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I am an IT guy, who people think get paid ‘in lacs’ for sitting in front of a computer and pressing a few keys. But the most important thing they forget is i do not get paid in lacs per month as they expect but over the period i get a couple of lacs, but i wont feverishly disagree on the second part of the comment.

Over the last year, i have worked on a few projects, but i have not really done much. A couple of years ago, i loved to spend time in front of computer reading articles, implementing them, learning new things, but now i spend most of my time reading article mainly sports related or watching movies and television series.

Somewhere down the line i have lost the fire within me. I have a few who come up with an excuse of lack of time for what they are not able to achieve. I believe in the contrary. There is no fault but yours. When you blame lack of time, it simply means that you have been too damn lazy to do what it takes to realize your dreams. I have and i know how it feels. I am probably the laziest guy you would ever come across. Ask my roomates and they would give a lecture on how lazy i am.(maybe i will get Adi to write a guest post here once his GMAT’s over.)

Over the course of the year, i have planned to learn quite a few languages and have failed massively in all. The only language i managed to learn something is probably Tamil ;) and that too is very very bad, Oh and those who did not understand i actually wanted to learn Programming langs. I have heard and read enough about this from my friend Nithin (who blogs here) and Jaz ( who is the co-founder of Wowmakers) about my expertise in the many languages.

I have almost completed 2 years in a MNC and am truly fed up of working here. I feel suffocated and the lack of freedom and fun that i had while working for my previous employers(Foradian) has made me more and more insecure as each day passes.

Now that i have wasted a good part of almost 2 years of my life, i have 2 choices, both extremely difficult given that i am top class procrastinator and have almost never done anything in time. I can either continue doing the job i do, switch company, get a better package and work my ass off for no apparent satisfaction OR i can switch my job to something i had loved to do, and even though i may not get paid as high as i would if i stay in my current job, be happy and satisfied with my job.

The choice is obvious… is it not? What is your opinion? What do you think i should do at this juncture?

A note to self

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There seems to be a fundamental error in the way things are going. Somehow i have missed that critical wiring that enables the transition from planning to execution. Call it a lack of will power or concentration or just the lack of passion for following my dreams, but it all leads to this basic fact that i am unable to attain any that i target.

Strangely, unlike many who do not know why things are going wrong, i know the reasons very well. But knowing your problems is just the first step, overcoming it is a matter different all together. To do this i think i have to take some bold steps. So here are a few to-dos that i want to do so as to achieve what i want.

  1. Complete a wordpress theme by mid Novemeber.
  2. Understand and implement various CSS3 and HTML5 features.
  3. Start on a project using any language and STICK TO THE PLAN UNTIL THE END.
On a more personal note, my weight is increasing and health is decreasing, so its high time i did something about it, so here are the to do list for gaining on some lost health.
  1. Start exercising for atleast 30 mins a day.
  2. Walk for atleast 20-30 mins a day.
  3. Avoid chicken whenever possible. Try to limit the intake to at least once a week.
  4. Avoid Fizz drinks and packaged junk food.
  5. Sleep by 12 and wake by 7-8
I know many of my friends are going to laugh at these but this time i feel that i will succeed. Will try to update this every week.